Friday, December 23, 2011

A Sweet Little Message from the Past

I got a Christmas card from Margret. It was signed " with love Margret".

How is it possible to get a Christmas card from my daughter, when she died three years ago?

I was going through a box of Christmas cards left over from other years, partial sets, a little of this a little of that... and found a few that Margret had signed, but not sent.

It made me happy and sad at the same time.

The every day stuff gets easier, but this is only the third Christmas I'm spending without her.This year it isn't like the first Christmas with her gone. The pain of her absence was so much worse then. I wasn't sure at the time how a human being could live through that agony, but living through it IS possible.

I'm gonna be OK over the long haul. The happy memories predominate, the good times come to mind more easily than the sad. I have my husband and my family and you guys; and I have lots more hats to make before I am finished here.

I'm pleased to announce that I donated 17 hat/scarf sets to Valley Youth House in Margret's memory this year. The receptionist admired them, and hoped aloud that I would have time to make them some more for next year.

Hat photos here.


SeaSpray said...

I know that was a bittersweet discovery. I feel like that when I come across envelopes mom gave me with my name on the front and store coupons inside. Or other things.

I lost my best friend to lung ca (never smoked) in Oct, 2011 and find I am missing her more now.I like what you said, "The happy memories predominate, the good times come to mind more easily than the sad." That's been true since mom died in 08 and I long for it to happen with my friend.

may you have a blessed and Joyous New Year. :)

Ann of the Incredible Gift said...

Thank you so much! *hugs*

I have since "received" a valentine from her while going through a stack of papers from a little used corner. The valentine was not addressed to anyone, but it was signed. It felt equal parts sweet and creepy, it being a batman valentine, and batman being the dark knight, but I smiled when I opened it.

I seem to remember her signing a whole box of valentines before starting to address them.